my fault my bad

when your concern/care is too much, one will feel burden... [1st care] and yes, things will even become worse when other people start commenting on you! so i hate this kind of feeling, seriously. Feeling helpless, exhausted, frustrated and sad but i cant do anything. Dont want to let people to re-care about me [2nd care] because of this... So the solution will be NEVER tell anyone about your problems cause they will not be in the same shoes as yours!

Lately, my mood wasn't THAT GOOD!! ohh, you can blame me that is my problem or i am the one who cause this or whatever. YES, my bad to suggest to work here! YES, i should haven't worked here! YES, im too bad cause i have not never paid any rent! YES, im disturbing people! YES, im annoying! YES, i am wasting my time! YES, i didn't think properly of my future and my studies! YES, anything everything happen because of me! my bad my fault!

So are you happy with it? Im so tired/stressed/unhappy/angry talking to you you you you you! or i shouldn't have told you about my situation! im the one who make myself to be like that! im not supposed to simply tell others my stories! HA! 咎由自取！cannot blame others! too lame salsa shim! HAHAHA

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it's a brand new 2014!! :D Happy New Year everyone!! hope you guys had fun counting down with friends and love ones... this year i didn't do any countdown stuff nor watching any shows... just facing the facebook, reading the friends' status and found out that the words used mostly/trendy words were: #last #dinner #breakfast #lunch #happy new year #2014 #1314 #2013 #left #hours #mins and blablabla Haha it was fun seeing most of the status were like copy and paste XD oh ya... finally the buddy up who stayed at Adelaide for a loooong time! talked a lot.. still that funny... haha

well~ gonna move out from this place very soon... starting to worry where to stay.. maybe the only way to solve this problem is to get myself into a uni.. but how woh! cannot simply pick de ma... confusing~ sien! was thinking of chemical engineering/food tech and nutrition/pilot/air stewardess i duno.... like mission impossible... how ah.. was envy and jealous the friends who are studying right now.. they know what they want... they are clear with their target and goal.. unlike me... still staying here doing nothing(not nothing la.. just working)... everyone is asking.. but i have no answer to answer... shame -.-

and lately i had returned the tab to my colleague.. so i will not update my instagram that often... so sad... like im getting used to the tab and now i dont have it i feel so lonely~~~~~~ dimgai ahhh!!!! some suggest to buy a cheap smartphone but i was thinking to buy a better one la.. cheap but lag smartphone how la! hehe was thinking the 5s thingy... but am i dreaming? gonna save hard! haha

010114... A good day which people get married/ have birthday/get engaged... Happy for all of you! :D Congratulations! Happy New Year!! Happy Birthday!! Have Fun!!

happy 2014 yo!