Monday RED

A Monday which I feel ill...
A Monday which time dragged like it had 48 hours...
A Monday which i felt sleepy all the time...
A Monday which my experiment-conducting skills had been negated...
A Monday which i think of "am I that suck"?
A Monday which i understand : No matter how good is your result, mind your attitude as well!!! need not to show off your HIGH score... Not to be too happy if you really think that you are that pro... because the pro will not always show up... :)

i had got a bad Monday... the moment when you are being refuted by your partner... when you tried to put some effort in the experiment, the partner will keep on telling you: NO, you're wrong!! or Not like this geh! or i have a better idea! or you should do it like this... hmm... you noe... i wondered am i that stupid? did i connect the things wrongly? i used to do like this.. [hey.. im not saying that i dun accept people's advice.. i do but i need reason(s) WHY you say no... cause im going to do the same thing during the exam so your reason to me is very verfy important.. not just telling me you got a great idea/ found the BETTER WIRE to connect the circuit! ] so, i decided to ask the teacher AM I CORRECT? miraclely, the lecturer said im correct!!! Zzz i was happy and felt like wanna SCOLD people... ngai... think before you speak! don't straight forward say NO NO NO!!! tmd and dont show your impatient to me!!! im not your something and i have no the responsibility to see your shit face! ngai sat! :@

the stone in heart

=( i dunno what kind of feeling is this.. like there is something "HEAVY" placed in my heart.. so let's call it STONE. =.=

i can feel its weight..  about 1.0*10^100000000000000000000000000000000N... and it doesn't remain at that particular position..  like a rock sinks into the sea, it will stop moving after it reaches the seabed but the stone in my heart keeps on sinking... i dunno when it will land.. dunno where is the "seabed".. dunno what to do to make it stop moving... even though im lying on the bed, i still can feel the force pulling it... it just don't wanna stop SINKING... :( trying very very hard to read the notes.. but then end up with *BLANK* so today's physics tuition, we did past year paper.. initially i could handle the first question and then for the rest, i need to refer to notes.. okay nvm... but think about it! the moment when you got open book test but you cant get the answer, how do you feel???? :( my mind came across that: oh shucks! how to have CIE? are you that stupid? and then blank blank blank blank blank... and then EMO.. Zzz feel so tired.. and wanna give up everything.. no revision no past year no outings no books no study... what to do... ? :( kind of stress? maybe.. how to cure? dunno... but still gotta REVISE... i need good result :(

these few days whenever i was doing revision for the trial/sleeping, i would think/dream of Mr Kow and Miss Pang with a serious face.. typical poker face... and then shake their head : "You guys didn't prepare well for the trial .................................................... " :( awaken by this... =( haih... how...?